#110: When do you feel most like yourself?
I feel most like myself when I am alone.
I’m not antisocial, I’m just socially awkward. There’s a difference.
I want to make new friends, but whenever I try socializing, I fail at it, for some reason. I can’t seem to carry a conversation, and I always have to place my best foot forward.
Things are different when I’m alone, though. I think of different scenarios in my head, no matter how I’m feeling in those moments. Thoughts about life and the universe come to mind, and I ponder on them, sometimes to the point of questioning my existence and faith. I know that last part isn’t great, but it can’t be helped sometimes.
I’m a pessimist coated in optimism.